Two Weddings and a Tired Me

Music playing Frou Frou Let Go 
In downstairs living room
suffering from an ant bite on my inner thigh, which is kind of weird that something bit me when i was sitting on the couch i knew they were ants here
but internally i feel stressed, i have to clean up the whole house, by like tonight its already practically tonight. we have guests coming over tomorrow morning. not excited because its like a change in things which is pretty much it, it has nothing to do with the guest is just the change of things, i have to share my room with the guest and i am hiding a cat in the house, this is so stressful but life happens, so you just got to roll with it, thats what i am telling myself its quite relaxing to see life in such a manner so you won't get stressed out. listening to frou frou album details made me realize how much i miss frou frou, i remember when i was obsessed in 2005 or so, Let go was my myspace profile song for the longest, i remember because thats when i was more myspace obsessed, awww being a kid is so crazy, but i discovered the group on sytycd, so you think you can dance for those who don't know. i just want to write a new blog as a response to my complaining last blog about my pimples plus the wedding, well everything was okay. my hair wasn't but everything was okay, i think its with this my refound philosophy of going with the flow of life, life happens so go along with it. i have ten thousand pimples on my face it sucks but i have to move on if i have an event the next day. because it seems some how we stress so much about details and then when we go through events it wasn't as bad, sometimes i do believe my concerns are valid but sometimes there is nothing you can do, is either you suck it in or go crawl and hide somewhere. It was nice to see WHitney again for like 2yrs. It seemed weird, not weird but serious we always had some kind of joking laughing relationship but she seemed serious a bit, so i played a role as a whitness lol how whitty, i am purposely using whit in those statement in case you didn't know lol. but when the reception i saw a smile then i was like thats the whitney i know, we only talk for a brief well not really talking just saying hello, it was so short, shorter than short so brief like i didn't even know her, i didn't like that, i wanted to laugh with her and celebrate with her, i was there, i did attend the wedding but i felt like i wasn't really there, i feel sad that we didn't get to catch up, well not like talk about everything, its a wedding, its her day but just share more than just proper greeting but i hope to see her soon, it kind of encourage me to give her a call one of these days and so we can hang out, i don't like to be so surface, especially to someone i call a friend. i want my friend to be my friend, not just a title that is douced on about anything. so yeah Hey world i am putting it out there lunch with whitney one of these days. 
♥

Whit and I 

We later went to another wedding after Whitney wedding , i wish we could stay longer but Afoma had to go to another wedding reception and she was my ride. that nigerian wedding was the largest wedding reception i have been to in america, it was crazy, a lot of girls wearing skimpy dresses, i was like fashion in nigerian parties have really changed, you couldn't tell who was 15 or who was 25 everyone was dressed pretty out there, well not everyone everyone, some had great style, some the dresses were too much, i guess maybe i don't see nigerian parities as like a means of social networking, usually just go as a favour to the host, not like let me go get a new cute dress to go to it but i don't know things have changed plus not everyone thinks like me. I was kind of worried you never know if you add random people as your facebook friends, random nigerian guys, they might be at a party like that knowing who you are and you don't even know them, so thats a bit creepy so don't add random people guys, i would like to kind of be aware of who i have as my friend even on facebook. lol. so that reception was the tiring one, it was really enjoyable, too much people ruined it for me, i was hoping to take some food with me, like a pan, lol because thats how some nigerians roll, we pack food when we leave from those parties like such. lol. so many people, they ate all the food, they were long lines to get to the food, the rice was disgusting, so many many many people, almost all the people weren't even paying attention to what was going on lol, but it was a lavish wedding maybe if we stayed longer we could have had fun but we were wiped. One thing i am excited about one of my friend is getting married and i asked to help be a co-wedding planner and she agreed, i am so elated, i hope she knows i am like meaning business, i am so excited, one of my dream is coming true to plan a wedding and to make her happy would just be the best thing, i feel she would remember be forever because of that, it would be like a great wedding present. My brother is coming back from the trip from chicago tomorrow, we are gonna be talking alot about the trip, it seemed like he had fun, well ofcourse he had fun. but i have to hand over his laptop i have had fun with it, well i do have my own but the fuse blew off on the charger so which means i need to get a new charger and you know chargers are expensive and i have no jay oh bee, so yeaaa but its okay i have my ipod touch, so i could get on facebook you know the very important website lol and other website if needed but i am not sure how blogging would work on it, i think i would hate to type all these much stuff on that tiny ipod. i like the feeling of typing on a computer, i really don't like using the internet on those little devices like ipods, cell phones or whatever, i like to use either laptop or computer, i don't know its much bigger and i like typing on the keyboard, it makes me feel like some kind of writer. i even want to get a typewriter soon, i remember when i was younger i dreamt of my own typewriting machine, i like typing, well writing, and typewriter requires no energy, like light energy kind of energy, i like it, i like the ideas of writing stories on it, writing people letter, i think its so fun, i like the idea of it, when i was younger because it made me feel like a secretary and when i was younger i loved the idea of being a secretary so much, i still do but not as a career but a fun job i really love to be a secretary in a perfect world i will be a secretary slash school teacher but we don't leave in a perfect world so it sucks too much pressure, i just want to be simple not have baggage so i can fly, but there is pressure to be successful in the education field to be something big deal but i know its around me but i have dodged some off by doing public health by choosing to do public health, i feel this is something i have made up my mind to do and i am happy with it. it combines everything i love so yeaaaa Thank God. i am just worried a little about my brother coming back, that he might yell at me that his computer does not seem the same because i have been using it, and i never asked him for permission but maybe he got the idea i was going to use it, there is this thing that pops up when you first use the computer, it has like picture slide shows and like a clock, it doesn't show anymore, i mean its not a big deal but i don't know how he would react. i don't like when people make fuss, i don't like fuss, no matter how little, i just don't want to be fussed at. lol. Well time is ticking away and i need to go vacuum excited to get my hair braided, well its going to happen on tuesday not monday because of the guest that is coming have to go get somethings. Pakistan is in my heart the people that have been affected by the flood, i pray that people be rescued, its such a sad situation. Life gone so easily, men people do suffer in this world. Well its the first day of August bummed out that i didn't go to church today but my back was killing me, i was wipped out from the weddings the previous day, it just reminded me this is why i don't like to stay up late on saturday night because of having to go to church on sunday. my back is killing me, my lower back, i feel like a old woman, i kind of want someone to like bend me in half, i think that would feel good on my back or step on me, or like message the heck out of my lower back, i need pressure on it. well before i blab on about my back, its August so many plans for August. Casting Crowns concert, graduation well going to beaumont to support friends graduation, road trip to san antonio, Miss Ini wedding which i am going to be a brides maid, study hard for the GRE. well hopefully all my plans goes well, i put them all in God's hands.